Friday, December 24, 2010
ITS CHRISTMAS EVE!morning went to dover to meet up wif my boss and collegue to exchange christmas present.
boss treated us KFC. den went to meet up wif some fren and den went to orchard. He treated me MAC:) den went to modesto italian restaurant.
I loved you @ 11:49 PM
Thursday, December 23, 2010
BELLA!! It's time to face the reality that you really have nothing more encouraging to let yourself to stand up anymore.
i am sorry i can never be 'me' when i am with you, in results of being a different 'me' when i am not with you.
i feel stupid, real stupid to cry & defend myself. when all i wanted was really myself to be happy. the original 'me' will never be accepted, that is a fact i know. i have a mouth & my own voice to talk yet i honestly feel much like a mute.
things seems better in the past where i say nothing.
i am sorry i am not perfect neither to the least good to be a girlfriend.
I dont know why there will be this and that.
I dont know why it is always the cause of so.
Sometimes i just cant help to wonder why.
Burden, worries, faults - all lies in oneself, bring oneself down.
Selfishness, unexplanable, actions - everything shows.
Is it worth? Is is worst? You judge.
Is it true? Is it fake? You judge.
Has it changed? Is it coming back? You judge.
Never good enough, never enough of anything - Humans.
As much as i want to at times, i stopped.
Time stacked up the defence of oneself, made oneself strong & hard.
However, you're still the reason it goes soft.
Everything.. & anything, why?
Still, selfishness.
I will learn, from Karma.
I loved you @ 3:18 PM
